Sweet Dreams? I Wish...

Sleep has become unrestful since beginning of this week. I wake up every morning with heavy eye bags. I've trouble getting into and out of bed. Tummy has become heavy. Very heavy...

Decided to start my maternity leave 3 weeks before the estimated due date. Have a hunch junior will arrive earlier than expected, somehow...

GBS

Gynae did a swab test and found I've Group B Streptoccocal vaginal infection. Sigh... What I've been fearing. Heard it'd affect babies born through vaginal delivery. Small percentage will get heart, lung infection.

But I was put on a course of antibiotics immediately after I was tested positive of this infection. Hope my body can start to produce antibodies. Hopefully, it'd minimise baby's chance of getting infected when he's born.

I never doubt I'd deliver him the natural way. I'd love to. So that I can carry him soon after he's born. I've nothing against c-section but I just hope my boy can feel his mum's love the minute he's born, without delay.

The Fighter

I finally saw my part in the scheme come to fruition today. After all these weeks and months...

Baby has also proven he's a fighter like his mum. Ha! We went to my gynae today for the much anticipated 2nd detailed scan to see if baby's condition has improved. After the examination, doc announced that baby's growth is back on track. "Whatever you've done over the last 2 weeks, continue to do it," she said. The CTG (heart scan) originally scheduled today can be done without due to this improved condition. Phew! Saved some money.

To-date, Berry and I have spent almost $3k on our visits to the gynae. Sigh... And we thought a wedding is expensive. Baby has already spent us more than we expected. ;pp

When Love & Hate Collide

I'd love to be able to rest at home and hopefully help baby grow. However, I hate the fact that I've to go to work to ensure the new scheme I've been working on this past 1.5 years is implemented smoothly.

I've been working late for how long I don't know. This week will be the same, if not worse. As the whole department counts down to the big event this weekend, the tension builds simultaneously.

I get calls every other minute for most days this week -- from printing vendor, internal liaison, IT support, other users/ stakeholders... It's amazing I don't lose my cool.

It's all right. I trust God's hand is working on baby. We'll see His miracle work this weekend when I'll go to the doc for a scan again.

Baby seems to have grown over the last weekend.

Bag for Labour

It's the 33rd week and I'm still not ready with the bag for labour. Went shuffling around at the Taka baby fair to do last minute preparations for baby's arrival. We finally bought a car seat. The last item for baby. All the rest have been take care of.

Still wondering if the breast pump we got is enough for heavy duty pumping. I'd love to give baby breast milk but I think I'll go back to work after 2 months' maternity leave. Thus, I'll need something that can take pumping everyday. A heavy duty one. I learnt from the Medela saleswoman that the pump I got is inadequate. However, the one for frequent pumping is really expensive. Will see how things go... Who knows. I may just quit my job for now to nurture baby.

Still quite a few things for myself. Breast pads, disposably undies, nursing night gown, nursing bras, maternity pads, etc. etc. I did it all today.

Thank God for the energy He's given to run all these errands.

Remedy

I never doubted He's in control. I said a prayer to ask the Lord for protection over my baby and got on to do what I should do as a mother -- do all I could to help baby.

Berry and I went to do some grocery shopping for healthy snacks. We bought apricot, chick peas, prunes (to aid my bowel movement), low-fat milk, wholemeal bread, Ritz biscuits, fruit juice, butter spread.

I increased my meat intake.

I can't take leave from work as the new scheme I've been working on for the past 1.5 yrs is to be implemented early next month. However, I started to make conscious effort to practise deep breathing each morning on the way to work.

The rest we left to Him...

Self-Reproach

I'd always believed that even if I don't eat a lot, baby will still be able to tap on the reserves my body has stored. So say a few books I've read. I couldn't figure out the cause of my baby's predicament. Have I not been eating well? Have I been depriving him of necessary nutrients by eating unhealthy foods? Not really.

Perhaps my busy schedule and irregular eating time have affected him. I spend12 hrs in the office everyday. I work from home on the weekends. Doc said let her know if I need MC to take a break from work. But I didn't.